sea of endpoint

sea, take me adrift
for all i couldn't handle
for all i couldn't lift

the waves will wash away
mortal sin and signs of rot
they'll hide all i would say
and all that i could not

hold me in your unbound arms
the ones everyone dreads
i know it will cause no harm
it's what fate threads

existing, barely

existing inside a reactor vessel
with just enough space to breathe
the pain has become sessile
but my life is one i cannot seethe

the cold of a flourescent-lit classroom
the warmth of a streetlight at midnight
will turn into a one-dimensional array of consciousness
but until then
i'll continue existing, just barely

barrel

i find love where there is none
your indifferent lust
your brooding hate
the barrel of your gun

with fate as our enemy
and love as our serenity
we will carve out a place
where we can stay fragile

forever

flicker?

rows of redwood
stab the heart with their stature

a moon which rose before existence
binds the destiny of one once lived

whose soul predisposed
to circle the same fire for eternity
now lies hidden
in between the fragments of absence

amidst war
you might find moonlight to follow
but moonlight will always lead
to it's circumambient cosmic vacuum
and a soldier will forget bliss
when he is swallowing the abbys

quietus

through bounds of space and time
through bounds of what is right
i piece apart all that's left of you

perhaps decay doesn't care
for these nights i've spared
and your absence lingers
in the chest and in the fingers

the sunrise carries your name now
and every morning i caress the rays
hoping to reach you, somehow

prayer to entropy

child of god's rotten body,
embrace your inner desperation!

the revolution of the stars
will seep through your pores
and travel down your wings

cold violence will crawl up your spine
it's spikes tearing through your skin
sharper than your mothers hands
softer than the animal you have been

because you are but a pinch of blood
in an eternal wave of flesh, chanting:
"for all of our hope lies
in the hollow name of jesus christ."