sea of endpoint

sea, take me adrift
for all i couldn't handle
for all i couldn't lift

the waves will wash away
mortal sin and signs of rot
they'll hide all i would say
and all that i could not

hold me in your unbound arms
the ones everyone dreads
i know it will cause no harm
it's what fate threads

existing, barely

existing inside a reactor vessel
with just enough space to breathe
the pain has become sessile
but my life is one i cannot seethe

the cold of a flourescent-lit classroom
the warmth of a streetlight at midnight
will turn into a one-dimensional array of consciousness
but until then
i'll continue existing, just barely

barrel

i find love where there is none
your indifferent lust
your brooding hate
the barrel of your gun

with fate as our enemy
and love as our serenity
we will carve out a place
where we can stay fragile

forever

finite mortality

who am i?
the past subverted
who am i?
the torture inverted

emotion succumbs to time
we are animals after all
dignity won't save us now
it won't stop the fall

thoughts that persist
who mourns the antagonist?
but guilt doesn't purify
and you know they're not your friends
they know no mercy
they only care when it all ends

flicker?

rows of redwood
stab the heart with their stature

a moon which rose before existence
binds the destiny of one once lived

whose soul predisposed
to circle the same fire for eternity
now lies hidden
in between the fragments of absence

amidst war
you might find moonlight to follow
but moonlight will always lead
to it's circumambient cosmic vacuum
and a soldier will forget bliss
when he is swallowing the abbys